Last year as I was leaving Bali, I actually started to cry on the plane as we were taking off, overlooking the beautiful ocean that surrounds Denpasar airport. I told myself at the time that it was because I was devastated at leaving one of the most beautiful places I had ever been, a place that I had made my home for 2 and a half months until then. I knew that I had to find a way to make it back to Bali, something about it just touched me in a way that other places hadn’t been able to in the past. It was now one of the main chapters in my life, and completely changed where I would go from then on, how I would live my life, and what I would do with it. However, probably part of the reason I was crying was because I was afraid to leave this beautiful paradise with no responsibilities, no obligations, and fly back to the real world. I had no job. I had no idea how I was going to get a job. I had no idea how I was going to make enough money once I DID get a job. All I knew was I wanted to teach yoga, and that my life was going to be different from then on (in a completely positive way of course).
The next year of my life was not the easiest experience. I did decide almost straight away that I would come back to Bali the following (this) year and assist on Rachel’s training. No matter what, I HAD to make sure I got back to Bali, no if’s and’s or but’s. I slowly started teaching more and more classes, usually subbing at first. Then I started to get my own classes, and my own little following of students, and I was so excited at the mere fact that I was becoming a REAL yoga teacher. Sure, I wasn’t making much money, and I found right away that I couldn’t teach 16 classes a week and still have tons of energy (weird), but I did feel like my goals and dreams were starting to take shape. I could see the path forming of how to reach those dreams, and everything was starting to become more real, more feasible. I had been telling myself that maybe teaching yoga wasn’t a real job, and that maybe I wouldn’t be able to make this work; or maybe that was the fear of failure talking in the back of my mind. Luckily this was just fear talking, and I found myself a full time yoga teacher… that was my job. And then before I knew it, I was off to Bali again, this year to help teach new students things that I know, and what I’ve experienced in my first year of teaching yoga. I had some doubts, but as always I was determined to set a good example and help as much as I could, no matter how much or how little that may be.
Jump forward two months, Im sitting on my couch, writing you this blog post. Reflecting on my second trip to Bali, and asking myself the same question that everyone has been asking me: “How was your trip?” I can honestly say that this was (again) one of the most fulfilling experienced of my life. As I look back through the training, I am just so happy that I was able to share some knowledge with the new women on the course. And now I’m reading all of their Facebook posts about their new experiences teaching like a proud mother hen, and so exited for them to be setting off on the same journey I was on just a year ago!
Not only am I proud of the students, but Im really proud of myself too. I feel like this experience gave me even more confidence as a teacher. Just knowing that I have knowledge to share and a year of teaching under my belt has been so uplifting. And now, coming back to class and the studios I teach in, I hear from my students and fellow teachers that they have read my blogs and actually benefitted and learned from them! This is why I became a yoga teacher after all, to help people move forward and progress in their bodies and in life in general. Coming back to such a warm welcoming from all the people I work with and from all my students has been so nice as well. I feel so grateful to be in this part of my journey, and am honestly able to just treasure the present and not think about how I can get to some goal 2 years from now.
I have to take a moment to thank the teachers on the training I took in 2010 and recently assisted on: Rachel Hull, Anna Smallwood, James Newman, Emil Wendel, Dr. Sujatha, and of course, Maurice. And also, thanks to all my family, friends, coworkers, and students, for being so supportive throughout this journey. Without you all, I wouldn’t have been able to have all these amazing and life changing experiences that have brought me to this moment today. I can honestly now say that I absolutely LOVE my job and my life, and I cant wait to see where it all takes me in the future!